The bouncing ball

I'm kinda lost right now. I have come to a point when I have pause juggling the famous crystal, metal and bouncing ball. It seems that I'm lost thru time and space, when everything slows down and stops. The last time that I know is I have already lost my grip on the bouncing ball and its droping off so fast on the floor.

Its been almost 6 months now and 3 more months to go and our lives will be changed. There's a mixed feeling of excitement and worries. Worries that I should submit to the Creator above. I love my wife and the baby inside her but at times like this, when everything slows down and stops, for some reason which I also don't understand, I can't and having a hard time showing off to them. I hope they would understand.

Perhaps I'm busy catching the bouncing ball that I have dropped. Perhaps I'm too busy doing the provider role, making and securing the future of my family. Too busy that I have lost my grip on the bouncing ball. A classic example of a real failure. With the current situation and 3 months left, I'm facing a dead end. I'm not too sure if everything I have planned and hoping for to secure my family's future will work out.

The height of my career has reached its peak and its droppin off so fast. The business I have formulated and planned for is not as it seems to be working out (though its still on its making). The million dollar question would be: Should I continue this craziness or go back to reality.