Guilt and Fear

Guilt and fear… These are the factors that hold back my faith in God. I must admit my faith isn’t as solid as a rock. Its can be easily shattered by guilt and fear. Guilt of doing the wrong things and fear of the consequences that you have done may backfire on you. When at times the fear is great and had overrun my faith, I cry out to God; ask for His forgiveness and help.

Why am I telling this... simply because, we live on a modern world… we tend to forget that there is a Creator who watches us struggles in our circumstances. We are easily carried away by our feelings and regrets of the things that are happening around us. And if some point of your life you feel depressed, worried, lonely or searching for answers... look up in the sky... and you will find what you are looking for. ;-)

And for some reason if you have feared about backfiring consequences or God punishment, my advice... accept it, ask for forgiveness and learned from it. I like this verse:

My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,

and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

because the Lord disciplines those he loves,

and he chastens everyone he accepts as his child

Prov. 3:11,12, Hebrew 12:6 (TNIV)

The whisper

With all the things that are happening around us, circumstances that are uncontrollable and awkward "habits" that are threatening for corruption, makes me think and realize the real value and purpose of life. Thru weakness and sadness, I decided to search for it and somehow God had whisper the "starting point" to me.

That time, my boss, Sir Paul was listening to an interesting audio book that even some of the prominent personalities had read it (e.g. George W. Bush). I was curious about it and ask a copy of it then I realized it was Ric Warren's Purpose Driven Life, the same book I have heard long before to my college mates. Then I committed myself on reading it.

Thru Bro Harold (a friend and a colleague) initiative, the very essence of the book materialized thru Lingkod PDL Friday session. And now its day 34, the lessons and session are about to end... somehow it had change my life, my thoughts and my heart. I know its only the beginning... surely there is much more to learned and practice.

Special thanks to Ric Warren and Bro Harold ;) and most of all, to God our Lord.